As my Jubilee Anniversary approaches, I suddenly thought today about the future. I sometimes and I am sure a lot of people do, think of where will I be in 5 or 10 years. I use to think about that when I was younger, being young you can imagine all the possibilities, the future is limitless, where will life take you, who knows, it is so intriguing.
Now at 60 the perspective is somewhat different. There is always a future, but it is shorter now, the horizon is closer, when I was 20 the future was 70 years of life ahead of me, hard to fathom, so much time. The future now is more like 25 years, if I go by my parents life expectancy. Not bad still, my latest annual medical and tests came out clean, nothing to talk about, good genes my doctor says. Dentist thinks I should be the Colgate poster child. So with good health, then the future does not look so bad.
A neighbour who is at least 15 years older than me, said this week that everyone she knows is ill, some very seriously. She remarked you know it is our time of life when people we know start to die. I suppose that is true to some extent, but I recall my maternal grandfather dying some 48 years ago, I was young then and frankly not fully comprehending what it meant, though I knew there was finality to it. But now when we hear of someone we know dying, it is more shocking, one less person in our entourage. Gives you time to pause, to think and reflect.
As an older person, not old, I know there are certain things I do not want, so I tend to insulate myself, shut out the undesirable, noisy people or uninformed opinions, immature behaviour, boors. I am old and experienced enough to know better, so I surround myself with people I enjoy and shun the rest, I am no longer willing to put up with whatever. I know this may sound hard but comes a time where you have to make a choice. I find I like quiet surroundings, intelligent conversation. Come to think of it, I probably started this progression some time ago, when I retired it just accentuated itself. I have become less tolerant of needless noise. Am perfectly happy to read a book, play with the dogs, do things around the house, take a walk in the park, have a conversation with friends, enjoy listening to music or write on my blog. I have no need for constant excitement or TV noise or for what passes for news these days.
My Friends, you know who you are, I appreciate your constancy, some of you I have known for a long time, the conversations, the confidences we shared, life events, emails, blogs all those things of life that ties and connects us. I prefer to concentrate my thoughts and time on this aspect of life, better the people you know and enjoy than something undefined.
So as I enter this new phase of life and I hope you do notice that I do not use the word last, because it my mind it would be premature, I wish to refine and make the most of the years yet to come, using this gift well.
Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you imagined.
David H. Thoreau